Mel Flowers
Just A Masterpiece Trying To Master PEACE✨
Disappear video
Tho appearance fades some turn into words and make it onto paper.
The rest, fuck if I know where they go.
Like emotions, one day they will surface.
I wish they’d make up their mind.
I’ve tried.
Hell I’ve closed my eyes & tried forcing them out.
All I get are empty feelings.
Like the last dropout a 1926 Macallan.
Finished! So I sit in my chair.
Watching the sun fade.
Staring into my mirror.
I see an empty soul.
My vision blurs with tears and I think,
Lost words.
But my mind is so scattered in these emotions that no words make an appearance.
I seem to have forgotten the alphabet.
No fucken words can save me now.
• making yourself sleep deprived
• making yourself cold (not wearing warm clothes in the winter, sleeping without a blanket etc)
• not eating
• not drinking
• eating too much
• not looking before crossing the street
• scratching
• letting your skin be dry & break easily
• picking at skin
• over-exercising
• substance abuse
• over-working yourself
• making yourself go out and do things even though you’re exhausted
• putting yourself in anxiety-inducing situations (even if you have a choice to stay out of them)
• triggering yourself
• purposefully angering someone who you know will yell at you
• entering relationships you don’t want to be in/being around people you don’t want to be around
• having sex when you don’t want to
• setting yourself punishments
• not giving yourself time
• not letting yourself spend time with the people you love & know will be good to youstop assuming that self-harm is visible and easy to notice.
"What’s worse, dying when you want to live or living when you want to die?"
— Unknown (via wnq-writers)